Collegiate athlete and contributer, Susan Born, speaks openly and candidly about her experience of living with an eating disorder that began as a youth and how she struggles with it daily to participate in a sport she loves, Triathlon.
The worst night I can remember during all of this occurred in the summer of 2009, before I was diagnosed. We get a lot of summer thunderstorms here in Colorado. I woke up to the sound of car alarms and began to get anxious, noticing how markedly and strangely weak I felt. My chest hurt. I was freezing. I felt like my heart was beating lethargically. I closed my eyes and tried to fall back to sleep, but I couldn’t force myself to believe that I would probably be all right in the morning if I fell back to sleep.